So the good news in my  journey is that no matter what weight I am I do have the support of my friends.  They send me photos such as the one I have featured.  Especially when I say things like:

If I wasn’t able to do it on my own for the past 13 years then why now? 

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That photo above would be the 160lb me.  HMR used me in an advertisement and that is the photo they used.  I feel like I have let them down.   My friends say do it right this time… quit being lazy… IT’S JUST SO HARD!

I will never know why I let my negativity get in the way of so many things, I just do.  Something I have to beat myself first.  I have to like myself first.  I think when I started HMR I was doing it for too many of the wrong reasons and not enough of the right reasons.

I have not worked out since July 30th.  At that time I rain 6mph which I have never don before I just felt the need to.  Now I am out of breath going up my stairs at my house and I feel 10lbs heavier than what I really am.  (Then again I am sick too.)

My friends comment things like: “You should be proud, keep going.”  “Keep pushing yourself, you can do amazing things.”

Friends can be an amazing thing and for that and their support, I thank them.

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