So I weighed today. Boy was that dumb. Needless to say I have not really started dieting. I have started eating like I have never ate before.

I need to live for these kids and my family. I am eating life away. I am stuck in a void I cannot get out if.


I have issues I know. I am starting to have a hard time breathing and I am so big I cannot lay with my son.

I know I should say let’s start now but I say let’s wait until Thanksgiving.  Ugggh