Hello to all….hope you didn’t think I forgot about anyone.

To be honest, I have been disappointed in myself and unhappy with some things overall.  One I haven’t lost a single pound.  Well I take that back I lost 10 and gained 10.  I started back with HMR and quit.  I then went with Weight Watchers and have not been in it a week.  However I haven’t even paid attention to what I am doing yet.  I am sitting here watching sappy movies and crying when I should be in bed since I have to wake up in 6hrs. 

So my husband told me that he fell in love with me because of my confidence; which I no longer have.  I am not sure where I lost it. All I know is I am so unhappy with things. I know I know I have control over it.  Decisions in life are so hard to make which they never ever teach you. 

I should worry about myself too but I never ever do and never seem to be able to. I put everyone else first.  I don’t know what else to do.  I think I cry more now as an adult than I did as a child. So all these little stuggles would be why I have no wrote in awhile.  I promise that I will more often. 

Until next time!!