Isn’t there a song that says, “it’s 2am and I must be lonely?” Or is it 3am? Matchbox 20? Heck IDK what I do know is it is 2am and I cannot sleep. I think it has something to do with the fact that I was alone 80% of yesterday. 

Why is that such a big deal? Well it was my birthday, the oldest at school and the younger two with my parents.  I hated it. Who wants that on their birthday?

It brought me down a few notches.  Although I have been doing a lot of thinking.  Five of my fb friends had babies in the last 7 days 3 boys and 2 girls.  Out of them two had issues and had to have an extended stay.  Luckily one came home today. The other, well he still needs all the prayers, juju, good vibes that he can get.  He is the son of someone I consider my sister.  The entire family is like my second family and I would do anything for them.


This little handsome guy has improved over the last few days but is still where he is in the photo.  I wish I could take it away from them.  No one wants anyone to go thru this and no one thinks it can strike so close to home.  However it happens.  Life is short and things go by quick.  I know I keep thinking I cannot wait until he gets to come home and play with his toys and read the amazing book collection his mom and dad got for him!!

He is so strong and his parents much stronger than I ever could be!!

I stay awake wondering because I care.